Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Day Seven. Post Two.

No, you're not crazy, I jumped from day one to day seven. And I know I said in my last post that I was going to try to do this everyday, but that is quite difficult, so I think my revised goal is at least once a week.

The week has gone well since my last post, many last minute scrambles for assignments, but nothing to catastrophic has happened..yet. Psych mid term tomorrow evening could change that, since the best mark I've heard that anyone's got on it yet is a 70%. But hey, I'm smart and got a 75% in IB Chem last year without studying at all, so let's see..If I never blog again, it's because the mid term was the death of me.

Only two more weekends and I am done working until Christmas time. I'm super happy and depressed about it all at the same time. On one hand, I get to go home and actually relax, do some work and enjoy my family. On the other hand, I kind of really like a guy from work, even though he has a woman I can't help myself, and now I'll hardly get to see him. I wont go into gushy details about how I feel about him, and I am definitely not the kind of girl to try and split them up, I just cross my fingers and toes that things go sour naturally.

Also, is it natural for someone to want to get rid of their virginity like it's an STI or something? Cause at this age I just feel like it's something I shouldn't have, but I can't seem to find a way to get rid of it. As I mentioned, guys that I like either have women, or arn't interested in me in the first place.

I also throw up on a daily basis, no I'm not bulimic, but I have a very nervous stomach, and even if my head is telling me nothing is wrong, my stomach tells me other wise. I don't want to go on nerve pills or anything cause that puts this "crazy lady that can't handle the pressures" label on me and that's not who I want to be. But I can't sleep through the night without waking up and gagging, going back to bed and getting up at six am, and throwing up. This morning made three mornings in a row that this happened, usually it happens on weekends when I have to go back to uni and then sometimes through the week while I'm here. I cry over stupid things, I used to be this really strong person and now it's just like I'm crumbling away into gravel.

Well, thanks for reading and as always, please feel free to ask any questions or leave any comments.
Have a swell day!

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